School started yesterday, i swear it was damn boring the first day of school.
But no choice i really gotta work damn extra hard this year.
Coping ITE and O lvl this year, i'm starting to have some doubt whether if i can cope both.
i really wish to go into poly, i dont wish to be looked down by my relatives.
i felt pressurised by those poly students everytime whenever i walk pass them, wearing ITE uniform.
Imagine this year dear will be going to poly and i'm still in ITE struggling with O lvl and ITE together. What if i'm going to fetch her from school or sometimes going out with her poly friends? what am i gonna answer if they were to ask where am i studying?
If i were to tell them i'm an ite student, will they use another point of view to look at me? or maybe my girlfriend? I really dont know man.
Sometimes, i felt so lousy. Maybe one day i will lose you because of this particular reason?
i dont know. If there were to be one day that you leave me because of this reason, i won't blame on you.
I only can resign to fate and blaming myself for not being outstanding enough.
I wont resign to fate until that day come and i hate resigning to fate man. It sucks.